The problem: 258. Tight clothing. High Bloodpressure. Fatigue.
The solution: Need to drink water more. I don't know why I can't keep this habit up. I can't diet. Can't do it. This has to be permanent. I want to go walking, but feel like it's too hot. I need to stop making excuses.
When: Tomorrow: Start all this again. Eat right, Amy.
Why: Your life depends on it. You just saw your grandmother almost die from her diabetes. Gotta get this under control. Figure out why I eat. I am killing myself by doing this.
I have a wedding to look good in.
I have a family to start planning,.
I have myself to feel good about.
I have Dylan to make proud.
I have the bullies to prove wrong.
I have the echoes of a heavy childhood to silence.
I have a life to live for.
Cause: By overeating, I made myself sadder, so why do I find instant gratification in baking cookies and eating them? What drove me to feel like that was ok? I know when I started to get big. I was between 1st and 2nd grade. 1st grade I was normal weight, 2nd grade I wasn't. So long ago, I don't know what caused it. Maybe I can uncover it through this progress and correct it.
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